sad.

I dont know th reason.maybe cause time is flowing too fast? You are one of th main reason i cry evryday,dearest aunt. I wanna turn th clock back. get back to my old life. when i was young,i didnt treasure u well.u helped my tie my hair,brought me to sku,played with me,shared a room with me.You alr left ard 2 yrs but i still cnt get over u.I stopped thinking abt u last yr end and nw i see more ppl leaving this world and it sends chills down my spine. bro dreamt of u before lyk twice but u didnt come into my dreams)': sometimes when i see ur photo in ahma's drawer,i think abt th times we spent tgt)': last time u treated me very well.u had__and went hospital.visiting u was terrible.i hate hospitals,u didnt even rmb me.my heart aches. maybe i grow too fast?i understand things i shldnt.usually ard my age ppl dun get upset over small matters but i do.me n tingting jie treated u th best yet u didnt even rmb us.im praying to god that he wont take away more of my family members now coz i really learnt to treasure them well.i love them,although i get pissed of with my grma,i love her alot.i treat her better and love her more den my dad]:.bros screams at her and scolds her.they're still young and doesnt noe hw to treasure ppl well. she's old alr.she keeps injuring herself and when i look at her wounds,i cry and my heart aches.she says im silly but she doesnt noe hw i feel)': whenever i go to th temple to pray for u,me and tingting mummy tear.i understand hw she felt. when i had th last chance to see u,u were in th coffin.i didnt go.i noe that i'll cry if i went.we went into th rm where u were cremated,i cried.ahma and aunts cried too.imy alot.i alr let go but nw th feeling comes back.maybe ive been thinking too much.im having stress and troubles.my results keep deproving,i noe it's coz i slack too much but when i gt too tied up with hmworks,i break down.i decided not to use com so much n start studying.i dont want to let mummy and daddy down with my poor grades. i have to let go. luckily it's june hols nw that i dun hv to go sku or i wont b able to concentrate. cried as i type abt u. jessica says my eyes were abit swollen n had dark eye rings today.she cried ytd too coz i reminded her of her late grandfather): we cried tgt when we chatted on msn.we have to b strong,cheer up too.Thanks mummy,daddy,ahma for raising me up(: love u all.this song made me touched out of a sudden. i listened to this last time yet i didnt feel anth but nw i felt diff.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLH_QHNdCq8&feature=related